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Letting go

has always been a hard thing for me to do.

Batgirl cam home from her Daddy D's. I gently showed her these pictures and told her that Guelito (Abuelo) was no longer eating. He was getting old and his body was weak. He was dying. As we spoke and shared tears, she was not wanting to accept it. She cried, "I don't want him to leave!" She didn't want to lose him. She adores him. Since birth they have had a very special relationship. She always worries and prays for him (and Guelita). She understands as much as an eight year old can. 

I'm so blessed to have learned from these two how marriage and a relationship should work. I love seeing her take care of him. Listening to her talk to him. Making sure he is not in any pain.I spent a short time with him Sunday. He asked about the kids and wanted to make sure we were giving Batgirl the attention she needs. He's aware of her current struggles.

I spent a few minutes reading El conejo Pedro (Petter Rabbit). Mi tía was there with me, but she let me sit next to him. I'm always grateful for the moments I get to spent with these two.

As my sister stated much more eloquently than myself, I'm not ready. I hesitated to write anything on the subject. I thought I would just direct everyone to her site. Then I remembered that our experiences are different. Our struggles are different. Our talents are different. (She is very talented :)).

I know that soon Lito will leave his physical body. His spirit will move on. We will be left to mourn and share memories of him. It will only be a short time without him. Soon enough we will be reunited. We will be able to see him again. That makes letting go possible. It's not easy, but I'm grateful for the peace I feel in their home and the peace the Holy Ghost gives me. I know su hijo y padres están esperandole en los cielos. Esto me hace feliz. Sé que tiene mucha gente esperando su llegada.